Until almost 5 years ago I didn’t know what life could be like without you. You have had a hold on my family since the day I was born. My first breathes in my home were filled with you so it’s no wonder why I turned to you in an attempt to feel older, cooler when I was 12. You were everywhere, in my house, in my parent’s car, in their hands; you have been slowly destroying all of us my entire life.
I never really knew what food tasted like, what flowers actually smelt like, I never smelt the grass or the ocean because you took that all away from me through them and later I helped you do it to myself. You sucked every joy from me for almost 35 years; joys I didn’t even know existed because you were always there.